New Inspiration - Life Changing, Magic of Tidying

I heard people talking about Kodo Marie and her books; Life Changing, Magic of Tidying

People said that it is not how-to book for housework. It's the psychological how-to change your life; get rid of old selves and knowing yourself on what is your Spark Joy.

I want to have a change, new chapter of life. I want to know myself more. I'm, kind like, busy in day-to-day life and be blank on what is actually will spark my joy!

It's interesting, isn't it?
So, I brought the book yesterday.

The first thing first that this book recommend before start sorting/get rid of things and tidy up, is to think about the life that you would like to live.

Consider what are the joy of your life on earth is the key that help you truly know yourselves

If you could not answer, specifically, on how is the life that you want to life and how the house that spark your joy look like, please do not start the work!

At beginning, I'm blank. No answer.
However, after asking myself and think Why-Why, writing what I think step by step....
In less than 24 hrs, here is what I want to live!

Having Peace & Joy & Add Value (be the blessing)

And this is what I want my house to be!

Light & Airy & Clean & Space for freedom, learning and experiment

I decide that I will tidy my house follow Konmari's way!
I took BEFORE Photo of my home today, and my Birthday in 2020 will be deadline to complete the mission.

Here is part of my note on the house that I want it to be;

Is this the beginning of my new life chapter?

Long time to update...

Many years ago, I asked god for new chapter of life when I saw life of people around me have gone through new chapter. It has been so long that I'm in this chapter, I think.

In  fact, there have been changes in this life chapter...
I had my own house, got promotion, got new car, etc. But I feel unchanged.

The past year, there were things new in my life, that I feel changed.

I really be able to stop loving someone, and completely remove him out of my heart that I feel nothing now. He is very different person to me now. No pain at all.

Someone has come into my life, surprisingly. It was almost love at fist sight but it was not.
He is dangerous for my faith. I should run away from him but almost a year now that I could not remove him from my life. I was struggle but now I'm getting better and be able to handle rightly in our relationship.

I past year, I got big test on my career. Exactly one year ago, I realized that my position is insecure. Right after prayer, headhunter contacted me. I seriously consider about my next career. Eventually, it sum up that I have to choose between the dream job I want as project management type of work and operational work - specialist or generalist. I choose generalist. Career is no longer my everything. Having Career as generalist will wider job opportunity for me. About 6 months after I decided, there were job opportunity in operation for me. Everything that seem difficult for movement went smoothly. Starting 2016, I has been working as planner. Working in the day-to-day operation brought change to my life - I have to adjust myself quite a lot.

Since end of last year until now, I'm thinking for quitting BSF - that things that I have done for 10 years and serve as Children Leader for 7 years. I don't know real reason why I have this thinking. I just feel more joy when I think about more free time that I can do things that I used to do and want to do.

I want to have time to relax and read bible in any passage I want. Having to free thought after reading the bible, not thinking in the big frame of BSF. I want the moment that I enjoy the words.I want to go back to the time I used to be when I first believe. I want to be back to my first love.

Is this the beginning of my new life chapter?

Begin the Year with Thanks

Glory in his holy name; let the hearts of those who seek the Lord rejoice.
1 Chronicles 16:10

Thanks God and all glory be to Him for His blessing in 2014.

It was the year of learning...

Once I submit all, He turns the worst to best!

• Since H2/2013, my work was at worst. A lot of pressure. It seems that I have to recover the worst and bad reputation of team, and rebuilt it. There were many tears. H1/2014, I was thinking seriously of quit the job, and doing something else. 
• God gave me the learning. I have to submit all to Him. The learning is about "How" my mind should be when I really say I submit to Him All.
• It was up to the point I said to God, "please please decide for me. I don't want, at all, to think about it. Whatever you decide, I will take".
• Then, He closed the open door for new job and completely turn my work situation. 
• The job, that I went for interview and thought I would get, turns silence. Eventually, there was rumor that the company may be sold. Thanks God. It proofs that He really cares for me and I don't know all things.
• Don't know why but my works got well accept; several recognition and rewards, which up to the point I say "It is more than enough" Yes, it is all by Him and all glory be to Him.

Once I submit all, He gives me freedom!

• It is about 5 years that my mind has been with someone who has never been with me more than friend. 
• I keep praying and waiting and waiting. I am in the mist that nothing is clear. There are so many unknowns. God has not yet given me clear answer. He lets me be as I am.
• In 2014, on his birthday, I realized that I was the slave. My heart has been in trouble because the expectation that has never been met. Yes, no body but god can fill my soul.
• God gives me lesson of Yonah... [Jonah 4:9-10] But God said to Jonah, "Is it right for you to be angry about the plant?" "It is", he said. "And I'm so angry I wish I were dead." But the Lord said, "You have been concerned about this plant, though you did not tend it or make it grow. It sprang up overnight and died overnight.
• I give up all when I submit. Whatever God will bless me, I will accept. I trust in Him and His plan.
• I have freedom now! Thanks God! He gives me new perspective. Thank god for giving me the loving heart and the desire to pray for him. It is the precious thing that I shall keep. 
• I have freedom to interact with him without expectation. Even, there would have nothing in return, I have peace and joy in seeing he has joy and continues to stand firm in faith. God loves him and I so much. He will bless us the suitable helper (as His intention when He created Eve for Adam)
• I am now out of (his unintentional) game!

I have never heard God's voice but He always guide me!

• I was wonder, what is His will? What does He want me to do or to be? 
• Sometimes, I confuse. I didn't dare to think or to initiate thing.
• Thanks god. Someone told me... He has never heard God's voice but God always leads and guides him. This is how God is with him.
• Yes, it is. I look back and Wowww.. Yes, God is with me all year long. He answers my prayers, even in small things or what I prayed long time ago and have already forgot.
• Yes, He always be with me and guide me. May God helps me to be able to accept with peace and joy when things go out of my plan, my control or I face disappointment. May god helps me to stand firm in faith, have loving heart, be gentle in actions and speaking, have patience, endurance and be still.

I know 2015 will be another good year because God is with me.

  

Looking back, it is the life's journey

So long time that I keep the blog without update. Having a time today, to fixing the missing link and renew the blog, I read through the old blogs... since end of 2007 when I started this blog.

I saw the change in my... I saw my life's journey.
Yes, this is how wonderful the blog is.

I think you will be surprise (as me) on how your life have gone through the journey ^_^

"Crucify Him!!!" & Thai Protesters

There are abnormal situation in Thailand now. Red-shirt protesters started the violence. I could not understand these protesters; why they change from nice person to be violent and unreasonable person. Why people are so easily follow the crowd to do such a terrible things.

Yesterday I watched the news on TV about these red-shirt protesters for whole day.... I feel bad and nervous about my country that has been destroyed by them.... I cannot stand with it any more... I get mad on these people.

Thanks god... He warn and comfort me... He gives me lesson from this situation.

After prey to the lord, he enlighten me.
He reminds me the picture of Jesus before Pilate.

... when the crowed had gathered, Pilate asked them, "which one do you want me to release to you: Barabbas, or Jesus who is called Christ?"

... the chief priests and the elders persuaded the crowed to ask for Barabbas to have Jesus executed.

"Barabbas," the crowed answered. They all answered, "Crucify him!"
"Why? What crime has he committed?" asked Pilate.
But they shouted all the louder, "Crucify him!"

I don't mean who is right or wrong in the case of situation in Thailand.

This enlighten me how human is... we are sinners who easily be persuaded and follows the crowed.

These emphasize the great mercy of god and greatest love of Jesus who know what would happen in advance but still accept it for us... He takes away our sins.

Last but not least, I am not nervous as before. I know now, nothing is greater than our god. All things are under his control. I trust in him. He is now taking care of Thailand.

Peace will be back to this land soon.

I want to play the piano??

It comes back to my mind again...
" I want to learn how to play piano"

It is one of my dream to have and play piano. Many times, I go to music school and ask for detail of piano course, and give up after know the tuition. It is quite expensive and most of them for kids, not the (starting old) lady.

This time, this feeling comes back again. I go to the same loop. I could not make decision; I really want to learn but it's quite expensive. Is it worth? I asked every one in the family that I should take piano course, or not. Some of them said it's up to you and someone said that you are too old, it's for kids :-(

Then, on Sunday, I went to church. I pray and ask god... "God, shall I take piano course?... I can not make decision... why I so worry about it? "...

Then, it pops up in my mind... "key thing is not about take the piano course, or not... but it is about you have dream"

Yes, I recalled. 3 years ago I came to god with the life without hope and dream. I just lived day-by-day without any inspiration on what I want to do. I just lived with nothings and for nothings.

I realize now... this is one of changed in my life. I have dream, freedom and the real life is back... I am not the robot who just work-work-work without feeling and dream.

Start of the Record of Prayer

There were several encouragements to me to...

(1) write the blog more often.
I log on internet almost every day, and participate in others' blogs. I love to write and express what I'm thinking. However, for this place - Glory Bloom the place to share -, I always want it to be perfect. Therefore, every blog I put here is out of my good plan and thinking, which become a burden to me. I cannot update it more frequently as I wish.

"THE PLACE TO SHARE" should be the place where I freely share, isn't it? Thus, this is the point that I intent to turn my thinking and behavior. This place is the easy place where I freely share every things... to fulfill the purpose of "THE PLACE TO SHARE".

(2) record of prayer and prayer-answer
Many people have shared to me that they always write down their prayer in the book, to keep it record. Most of the time, as the time goes by, we always forget what we used to pray to god. To write it down, you can review and realize the grace of god when the prayers are answered. Anyway, the most importance is you can share the grace of god in your life to encourage others too.

I have never written down what I pray to god. This is the good time to start to record it. Certainly, I will not write it down in the book but the blog.

All right, that's all about the starting point of the Record of Prayer in this THE PLACE TO SHARE

CASO earrings - gift for the best friend

Have I ever told you that my sister is a Jewelry designer?

She is a professional one. Her brand, "CASO", was sold in the famous shopping malls in Bangkok. She also participated in several fairs related to Jewelry.

My friend, Joob, like CASO earrings so much. She went to see it at the jewelry counter several times. Then, when her birthday came... the best birthday gift for her is this earrings. Sure, the thing that I did was the nice packaging, attach with my sister's name card.

My friend loves it so much.... Do you like it?

Time to Think

It is the year to think about life.

Just 3 months of moving to new department (but doing the same job), one of my new team is going to resign. He is also one of my dream team. Therefore, my dream team is completely gone. My friend teases me that no one can stand with me; all of them resigned... I know it's not true.

Time to think of myself. I questions to myself several times... "Do I want to resign and get new job as well?" "Why I want to change the job?" and "What do I really want to do in future?"

I cannot really get the answers for those questions. I can feel only this is the year of changes for me but I don't know that at the end I can change to the new job or not.

I have worried from time to time. But now, I know only I need to wait. I don't know too how long I need to wait. At least I have learned to trust God more and more, trust Him from the whole of my heart.

I have already done every things that I should do. I will wait for God to have mercy on the answer and result.

The waiting time also gives us the time to (spiritually) think.
I will wait. Then, it will be the great joy when it comes.

Another steps

Long time no blog be updated...

Several things came to my life.

It was the last stage of transition to new life.

I'm taking another step to grow.

I have learnt about other meaning of family...
the powerful of being together as family.

I have learnt about other meaning of love...
It's not about be loved in return but rejoices with the truth.

I have learnt about grace of god...
god arranges every things for us... trust in HiM.

Taking another step...I don't know what's future is
but I fear not because god love me and always with me.

Summer Break

Let's take the Summer Break...

Next week is Songkran Holidays in Thailand. It is as the golden week in other countries. Most of people just take the vacation and go back to their hometown and be with family.

It's also a good time for me to take a break. I've been very stressed at work recently. It was peak, 2 weeks ago; I completely could not work any more, cry and print out the resignation form. My good friend held that resignation back and encourage me. I took unplanned leave and went back home early that day. My family is always good to me. My father said... "you can quit as you want, don't worry about any things at home. Every things will be OK. But, why don't you take long vacation?" Then, I took leave for 1 day after that, and went back to office to clear all my works before take another 3 days vacation prior Songkran holidays. Now, I'm during the long break, 7 days off!

I feel much more better now. Attitude toward the works is back to normal. Actually, all the stresses were just the workload that ate up my work-life-balance and the unclear plan of my department (after my boss and my friend resigned, no one replace them yet)

Nevertheless, the most importance is I got the new lesson... It is about to practice the faith in Christ; really live for God's purpose. In the difficult time, it is the proven time for our faith; do we pray and ask god to help or we try to do every by ourselves.

Yes, it is the proven time. Anyway, having long summer break is good for me to stop, thinking and relax. Have a nice summer time @^o^@

My new Bible

After keep looking for the Thai-English bible for a long time, finally I decide to buy the new Thai-English bible.

It is the nice and most beautiful one I have seen.

But the most importance is... it helps me to do my BFS homework easier.

I love it so much.

20th Century Boys

It is one of my favorite comic, 20th Century Boys. It is a science fiction cartoon. The story is about a group of little boys who play together and plot the stories about end of the world and heroes from their imagination. But when they grow up, all stories that they wrote become true one by one.


After finished this comic, the part the I like the most is.... (I think) the main idea of this comic should be gotten from our Bible.


The bad side of this story is "Friend", who pretended to Save the World at the beginning. Every one believe and trust him. He steps up and rules Japan and the world. He is similar to Antichrist. At the end, Friend reveals himself to public. He are the one who create all bad events, according to the stories that his friends plotted during the childhood. BTW, he also re-build the Expo-Doom (the doom is sign of the big Expo that every children in their childhood dream to go there. Doom was removed after end of the Expo).

The keys of this book is about "why Friend has to do all these bad things?" "how does it relate to his childhood boy gang, especially Kenji who is another main character is this comic?". You know, at the last book of this comic series, all the answers are shown. During their childhood, Kenji did the wrong thing to Friend.He doesn't realize and just doesn't care about it but it hurts Friend so much. Later on, these drive Friend to be bad guy. The story end with, Kenji, at the end, realize what he done wrong and really sorry about it. He went into the virtual simulation to ask himself (during the childhood) to repent, say sorry and ask Friend to forgive him. And that is the end of story.

Yes, the main idea is to acknowledge that you are sinner and repent.

Farewell

Keep Bangkok in your memory....

It is a card that I did for my co-worker who are also my indirect boss and my friend. He is moving back to his home country, Italy. All stars in the card are the photos he took by himself in Bangkok. Yes, he is an astronomer who work full time in a food company.

for you, Tiziano..."I will miss you a lot, especially when no one can understand me on the strategy to reduce the inventory!" ...God bless you

The 1st day of my New Year Holidays...

Just spend all day in front of computer....
... after be busy with the work and party, today is my quiet day... Sure, I'll write several blogs during these Holidays @^o^@

Merry Christmas & Happy New Year!

Let's Celebrate!

Next to my office... The Central World Plaza, big shopping mall in Bangkok
The firework for the King's birthday celebration.
The decoration @my church...
"Joy to the world, the lord is come..."
Last but not least, here is my church @^o^@

It'll be good if...

How good it is if our mind can directly link to blog?

There are so many things that I would like share but I don't have time to really sit down and make it for my blog. I would like to share some photos about the beautiful New Year decorations that are around my office... I would like to share to other about my latest crafts and the handmade new year gifts that I prepare for others.

I just think about how it should be on my blog. So, it would be great if all things in our mind can directly link to blog.

May be this coming Christmas holiday I can have more time to upload new things to my blog.

Fill an old-day-dream

After won the first prize lucky draw from this year Company-Year-End Party, this is what I brought for myself.

SWATCH is one of my old-day-dream. I've fallen in love with it since 8 years ago. I've kept visit SWATCH-shop but brought it only once for my brother as a gift when he went for Master degree in Canada, and now he is doing his PhD!

The features I like are stainless steel case/strap and date. I look for these almost 2 years now. Although I found it, without reason, I cannot spend for myself.

And now, my friend tell me "no wonder why your brother loves you so much. You can gave it to him as a gift but for yourself just keep look at it. It's not that expensive. Go and buy it. Let fill your old-day-dream!"