Is this the beginning of my new life chapter?

Long time to update...

Many years ago, I asked god for new chapter of life when I saw life of people around me have gone through new chapter. It has been so long that I'm in this chapter, I think.

In  fact, there have been changes in this life chapter...
I had my own house, got promotion, got new car, etc. But I feel unchanged.

The past year, there were things new in my life, that I feel changed.

I really be able to stop loving someone, and completely remove him out of my heart that I feel nothing now. He is very different person to me now. No pain at all.

Someone has come into my life, surprisingly. It was almost love at fist sight but it was not.
He is dangerous for my faith. I should run away from him but almost a year now that I could not remove him from my life. I was struggle but now I'm getting better and be able to handle rightly in our relationship.

I past year, I got big test on my career. Exactly one year ago, I realized that my position is insecure. Right after prayer, headhunter contacted me. I seriously consider about my next career. Eventually, it sum up that I have to choose between the dream job I want as project management type of work and operational work - specialist or generalist. I choose generalist. Career is no longer my everything. Having Career as generalist will wider job opportunity for me. About 6 months after I decided, there were job opportunity in operation for me. Everything that seem difficult for movement went smoothly. Starting 2016, I has been working as planner. Working in the day-to-day operation brought change to my life - I have to adjust myself quite a lot.

Since end of last year until now, I'm thinking for quitting BSF - that things that I have done for 10 years and serve as Children Leader for 7 years. I don't know real reason why I have this thinking. I just feel more joy when I think about more free time that I can do things that I used to do and want to do.

I want to have time to relax and read bible in any passage I want. Having to free thought after reading the bible, not thinking in the big frame of BSF. I want the moment that I enjoy the words.I want to go back to the time I used to be when I first believe. I want to be back to my first love.

Is this the beginning of my new life chapter?

The answer is...

I have questions in my mind... cannot understand myself and so confuse... What I should react? What I should feel?

God gives me a heart to care for someone and his family. I keep them in my pray. 

Recently, I goes extra miles to take little actions to care for his parents. 

I got confuse... As the world standard... When we did good things or show extra care to someone.. We should get something back such as the good feel with gratitue or the closer bonding relationship... However, I got nothing. The extra miles I goes seem nothing in return. He seem perceive nothing as I have not done extra miles. 

Thanks god for answer me and clear my mind.

The answer god gives me is...

"Yes, this means uncondition love"

The love and care to others in Christ. Love by action to care one and others. Love without condition, even they don't value or recognis your love & care and the extra miles you took at all. 

Thanks god for give me this loving heart.