I want to play the piano??

It comes back to my mind again...
" I want to learn how to play piano"

It is one of my dream to have and play piano. Many times, I go to music school and ask for detail of piano course, and give up after know the tuition. It is quite expensive and most of them for kids, not the (starting old) lady.

This time, this feeling comes back again. I go to the same loop. I could not make decision; I really want to learn but it's quite expensive. Is it worth? I asked every one in the family that I should take piano course, or not. Some of them said it's up to you and someone said that you are too old, it's for kids :-(

Then, on Sunday, I went to church. I pray and ask god... "God, shall I take piano course?... I can not make decision... why I so worry about it? "...

Then, it pops up in my mind... "key thing is not about take the piano course, or not... but it is about you have dream"

Yes, I recalled. 3 years ago I came to god with the life without hope and dream. I just lived day-by-day without any inspiration on what I want to do. I just lived with nothings and for nothings.

I realize now... this is one of changed in my life. I have dream, freedom and the real life is back... I am not the robot who just work-work-work without feeling and dream.